Monday, February 14, 2011

单身情人节与我。。。

时光飘逝,
转眼又到情人节,
对我而言,
它是那么的平常
只因经历了 23个单身情人节,
我,
习惯了。。。


再过 6个月,
我便 24岁了,
"年迈"的我,
在这甜蜜佳节,
也不禁开始。。。
有点。。。
想当年了。。。


想当年,
我也并不确定,
是真的对你动了心,
亦或是年少作祟,
我对你说了,
"我喜欢你",
被拒绝了,
没关系,
依然是朋友,
回想起来,
已过了 6年半,
谢谢你,
增添我生命的色彩。。。


想当年,
我也并不确定,
是否因为在营中闷,
开始留意到彼此,
不知何时,
不知从哪,
有了彼此的联络号码,
渐渐地,
似有似无地,
聊开了,
好像,
开始了。
但,
渐渐地,
似乎有点不对,
开始,
渐少联络了,
还记得,
最后一次的联络,
是以朋友的身份,
我,
听你述说你与他的"如今",
而非我与你的"过去"。
谢谢你,
丰富了我的经历,
也想说声对不起,
当时的我,
只在聆听,
而没能帮上你什么。
一直没能再联络上你,
不知,
如今的你,
近况可好?
愿你幸福,长乐。。。


想当年,
你刚因小3 PTS 升上小5,
当时对你的应向并不深刻,
直到小6,
因国文课的需要,
开始与你有了接触,
当时我在想,
"你好特别哦,
班上女生都蛮会吵的,
你却老是静静地,
问一下,
才答一下"。
想想,
已过了 13年。。。

之后的些许年,
都没想过会有什么进展,
直至,
我升中6,
你在matrik,
不自觉的,
我更频密的想联络你,
对你的好感,
似乎也一点一滴的,
加深着。。。

抱着怀疑自己,
不知会否有机会的心态,
尝试了,
也有了回应。。。

还记得那个夜晚,
我们决定,
退回到朋友的位置,
这时,
正是大年初一,
凌晨,
零时。。。

谢谢你,
打开了我生命中,
重要的一页。
今年,
你将毕业,
好好加油冲刺之际,
也别忘了保重身体哦。。。

还是五年前的那句老话,
" 想看你开心,快乐"
愿你与他,
幸福。。。


五年,
没错,
是过了五年了。
老实说,
在这五年里,
没真正尝试过让自己再去想感情事,
仿佛一直在提醒自己,
现况还不赖嘛。。。

但,
不晓得何时起,
五年前的那种感觉,
似乎,
隐隐若现,
那种感觉,
那种有点想主动关心你的感觉。。。

对于你,
实在的,
我并不记得何时开始与你有了交流,
也不记得何时开始与你较有联络,
更不晓得如今的我们,
算不算熟落。。。

如今的我,
不再像以往那般,
敢抱着一试的心态,
向你开口。。。

如今的我,
深知,
这么多年来,
我还学不会,
学不会温柔,
学不会体贴,
更学不会浪漫。。。

如今的我,
深知,
现时,
我不够成熟,
我不够肯定,
且,
我无法,
实际的给予你,
精神,
与物质上的承诺。。。

如今的我,
只凭着那淡淡的感觉,
想对你说。。。

我,
并不晓得,
如今的你,
是否已心有所属,
如今的你,
是否已名花有主,
但,
这一切,
我并不介意,
因为我了解,
我没资格要你等我,
更没资格阻扰你追寻幸福。。。

五年,
我给自己五年时间,
在五年内改变,
变得配得上你。。。
更要以光阴见证,
我对那感觉,
对你,
是,
认真的。。。


如果你有看见。。。
如果你有同感。。。
如果你愿意。。。
如果。。。

Monday, February 7, 2011

If i did... wat would ur ans be????

so long,
as i knw,
i cnt gv any solid promise to u,
i cnt secure u on mental n physical,
there present many "cnt" on me....

it press me dwn frm daring myself to move a single step closer,
as it shown to me that...
i m nt good enuf,
i m far frm reaching the "posible",
and, i m not ready to go on...

if....
if here by i tell u,
i wish to take 5years tym,
to make myself better,
to prove to myself tat i m serious enuf in this,
and,
in u....

till then,
i would tel u,
i like u....

will this be a burden to u???

or,

will u give me a "yes"???

Thursday, September 30, 2010

any idea wat title should i gv to the short word below?

just nw saw tiok clement kho post "好马不吃回头草!!" in his fb status..



so i bored bored, and the mood cum, feel like wrote sum mandarin... so wrote as below;


好马不吃回头草,

好草不怕回头吃;

若然劣马随后到,

岂非辜负好草心??

若然前方皆劣草,

好马委屈且伤身。。。

好马莫要太坚持,

不妨回头瞧一瞧,

好草或许仍坚立,

期待好马来相依。。。

Monday, July 19, 2010

where do human being cum frm??

suddenly i wonder about this:

do u agree the human being is:

a) frm the evolution of animal??? or
b) frm the reproduction of adam & hawa who created by god??


PLZ be open minded when u view the following, i just state out my doubt, no intention in criticize any religion thinking... thk u...

let say if u believe (a), then the question are:

i) wat animal that evo and turn into human??

ii) since ape had more common point wit human and sum say human did evo frm ape, bt, since ape can evo to human, y there are still ape around leh????


let say if u believe (b), then the question is:

i) y on such a big earth, they 2 can meet??

ii) if their meet up is fate set by god to reproduce, then is they white ppl o black ppl??? y can produce all kind of ppl as we had on earth nw??? (usualy in story they are white ppl lol)

iii) if god made them to reproduce and gt to the population nw, which mean adam n hawa is the 1st geneation of human being, then cum to the 2nd, 3rd.... BUT, if so is true, isnt tat mean the 2nd generation who is "damn close relative, brot n sis" made among them self to produce the 3rd??? n the 3rd do the same to gt the 4th??? and so on..... is tat mean god promoting "sex in family member"???

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

"如果我们的爱情真的要有期限,我会希望是万年。。" 浪漫吗??

when i bek frm Tunku Putra Sch this afternun, inside car heard myfm playing a song start like below:

“(男女对话):
女问男:你会爱我多久???
男答:我们都在一起酱多年了,你还用酱问吗??
...女说:难道你们男生不懂女生会这么问是因为女生在这段感情里缺乏安全感吗?
一会后,男生说:如果我们的爱情真的要有期限,我会希望是一万年。。。。。
女生说:那你去跟周星驰谈恋爱吧。。。。”

对,就是这句周星驰的经典名言,让我想在这写些华文。。。朋友们,你会否觉得那句名言相当浪漫,深切呢??

男生朋友们,换作是你,你又会给与什么样的答复呢???

若有一天,我爱的她酱问我,我的答复将会是。。。

“我了解让一个你不爱的人来爱着你,会对你带来困扰,而我爱你,想你开心,所以,我对你的爱,将会一直延续到。。。到你不再爱我为止。。。”

(PS: i say if oly oh..... hahahahha, cos so far only me n myself bah... ahhahahaah)

Sunday, July 11, 2010

my 12 tym..

11july, had being to donating my dirty blood again, had reach the vanue, 2.5mile maybank at 1030am and gt my number, 106. waited around 2hour n 10minute to reach my turn to give blood, however, when look at those MO, MA, and organiser who work in n out till dnt even boder about their lunch n rest, i felt my tym of waiting seem uncamparable to their hard work... as we move to the same aim, try to help those who need as far as we could ^^

Friday, July 9, 2010

blood donation campaign on 11july 2010

as i had receive a sms frm the FCY (晋汉省华青团) about the blood donation drive which organice by them, i will b going fr it, and i hope u will too, if u stay in kuching, and u r in healthy condition. below are the detail about the campaign which i copy frm Su Chua Phin 徐蔡斌 blog.

NOTIS KEMPEN DERMA DARAH

FCY akan menganjur Kempen Menderma Darah di haribulan, masa dan tempat yang disebut berikut. Datanglah beramai-ramai.


捐血活动通告

晋汉省华青团将于下列日期,时间和地点举 办捐血活动,请大家踊跃参与。


BLOOD DONATION CAMPAIGN NOTICE

FCY will be organising a Blood Donation Campaign on the following date, time and venue. Please come to support.




Haribulan/Date /日期 :
11th July, 2010 (Sunday)

Masa/Time /时间 :
9.30 a.m. - 2.30 p.m.

Tempat/Venue /地点 :
Maybank, Jalan Laksamana Cheng Ho, Kuching

Kerjasama/co- organiser/承办属团 :

砂拉越古晉颍川陈氏公会青年团
Ying Chuan Chin Clan Association, Kuching Division, Sarawak, Youth Section


dear fren, it would be grad to have to to join in the event, if u wish to, plz make sure tat u are:

a) 1st and most important, have the will to donate, n nt being force to...
b) >45kg,
c) slp >5hours b4 donating blood, (believe me, this is important as i experience it b4, normally i took 3-4minute to give out a pint of blood, bt lastym when i go wit no slp bt just short nap, blood flow affected and i took bout 25minute to gt the 1 pin done....)
d) being healthy and DID NOT took any medication within 3day b4 donating.
e) for gal, if pregnant, or 1week b4 n after ur period, do not donate as u might be weak.
f) no medical history like hepetitis and so on.
g) no HIV (shouldnt hav la ho?? ahhaaaha)

happy day, SAFE BLOOD, SAVE LIFE